All chats have been closed or are not active at the moment.

atrium-icon-sheet arrow info attention warning error help flag mug cursor quaver file notification message wrench person person-small youtube capped-person chats folder-person pin search-outline reblog multimedia palette facebook twitter pinterest email google-play feeling-great feeling-good feeling-okay feeling-bad feeling-terrible like lock cart kite mood-skills mood-graph online-counselling cloud laptop phone info-centre support-group download link off google-plus delicious instagram apple home statistics search zoom-in calendar newspaper filter send group location globe gallery card folder dna caret select circle-outlined check zoom menu hexagon more close edani-logo-blue

By using this website, you are agreeing to use our cookies, Read more about our Cookie Policy

Suicide survivor Kevin Hines: 'Don't silence the pain. You can get past it, one day at a time'

Kevin Hines was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1998. Now, he travels the world sharing his inspirational story

KEVIN HINES HAS battled bipolar disorder and depression for the past 17 years. At the age of 19, he was in the depths of despair and couldn’t imagine ever living a happy life, but now he spends his days travelling the world as a motivational speaker, sharing his story in a bid to make a difference.

Hines, from San Francisco, USA, spent the early years of his childhood in an unstable household. Both his parents suffered from drug addiction and often left him and his brother unattended in motel rooms for hours on end.

“We would be neglected lying in our own filth, screaming and crying not to be neglected,” Hines told TheJournal.ie.

One day, a clerk at one of the motel’s Hines was left at heard his screams and called the police. Hines and his sibling were taken into child protective custody and sent into the foster care system. His brother soon died from a case of bronchitis but Hines himself “got lucky” and was taken into the loving Hines family home.

“I grew up in a good childhood after my traumatic infancy, but one thing that never left me was my detachment and abandonment issues that I developed at a young age. I ended up being diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 17, that both my biological parents had before me,” Hines said.

The road to recovery

After battling with his disorder for two years, Hines told TheJournal.ie that it took him into “such a depressive low” at the age of 19 that he felt like he was a burden to everyone around him. He subsequently attempted to take his own life. His darkest moment came as he jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge but he survived.

For a number of years to follow, Hines spent seven stints in hospital working on his mental wellbeing.

During one stay, Hines said that he came to the sudden realisation that he had to change something in his life and begin to take his recovery process more seriously. He decided to try to foster his mental anguish into positive energy – to tell his story and help others like himself.

“I started working towards my mental health, exercising every day and eating healthy. I worked tirelessly for my brain health and wellbeing, I started to have great success,” Hines said.

He soon pinpointed one essential must-do for those suffering from mental health issues – to speak out and ask for help.

“I became so self-aware of my illness that when the symptoms came on I would be honest and tell someone who loves me, I could always be safe,” Hines said.

Hines now travels across the USA and around the world to share his story of recovery, in a bid that it will have a positive impact on someone in need.

Next Thursday, Hines is travelling to Ireland to speak to over 7,000 people at this year’s Cycle Against Suicide’s Student Leaders’ Congress in the 3Arena.

Cycle Against Suicide is an initiative started five years ago to raise awareness of the help and support for anyone battling depression, self-harm, or at risk of suicide. Once a year, hundreds of people cycle a route that passes through 17 counties and 67 towns in Ireland as part of the initiative.

“I’m going to work with Cycle Against Suicide which is, for me, a huge combination of a 17-year effort to help people find a way to change their lives and find hope and recovery,” Hines said.

I’m happy and I’m happily married but I still struggle with extreme paranoia, hallucinations and serious depression. I’m just able to accept my symptoms now when they occur, talk about them to people when they occur, I have a group support system.

Offering words of support and solidarity with those who suffer from mental health issues, Hines said: ”When you don’t silence the pain and you actually talk about what you’re going through to the people who do care and empathise, you can get past it one day at a time.”

He said that it is vital for everyone, whether they have mental health problems or not, to educate themselves so they can support and understand the pain of those struggling.

With the suicide crisis in Ireland, and of course around the world, it is pertinent that every community that deals with this struggle finds a way to be kind and compassionate to those suffering mentally and understanding of the thoughts that you want to take your life.

“If you can understand it if you can learn about it and if you can empathise about it, that is when you can best help your community and the people suffering today,” Hines said.

“You can make a difference when you’re willing to open your eyes and say I got your back. That’s the message I’m going to bring to Cycle Against Suicide.”


Article Comments

  • "It’s great he learned to live with his sypthoms"
  • - Jackmolo (16th of December 2018, 04:28:42 PM)
  • "It’s great he learned to live with his sypthoms"
  • - Jackmolo (16th of December 2018, 04:28:43 PM)
  • "It’s great he learned to live with his sypthoms"
  • - Jackmolo (16th of December 2018, 04:29:04 PM)
  • "Good on you for working through it. I just hope there was hope for me :-("
  • - Broken hearted :-( (23rd of March 2019, 04:52:21 PM)
  • "I am experiencing some serious mental health issues for near two months now. I have just lost my best friend through suicide and am finding it a struggle to carry on. This article is very helpful. Thank you"
  • - Chewy12 (21st of March 2019, 05:10:36 PM)
  • "I am sat in an A and E. Very scared. I came too close to taking my own life today."
  • - Jimmy1976 (3rd of April 2019, 01:37:51 AM)
  • "Hearing this really touched me, it has taken great strength for Kevin to get to where he is now which reminds me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I went through a troubling period during adolescence and soon after been battling with loneliness and mild depression as well as feeling like Im an outsider (at family gatherings or just either things I am invited too) for a while now, and it is really hard for me to get close to people, or even maintain close relationships. I don't have any friends and I am not really living a happy, fun filled life apart from going cinema sometimes. People may say that I have held myself back and yes I partially agree but at the same time it is very difficult to just easily put my trust in people and find enjoyment in even the little things anymore. It is hard.. I feel like no-one truly understands me or just gives up before they have even tried... My hope one day is to do something similar like Kevin and share my struggles with people raise awareness of my journey with loneliness and all the other experiences I have gone through, and by doing this hope to build strong connections with others."
  • - Nspald (16th of September 2019, 05:37:50 PM)
  • "I am diagnosed with squizoaffective disorder this has been terrible went to hospital ....I just feel like no hope sometimes....."
  • - Mirsh (13th of May 2019, 05:35:27 PM)
  • "Need to be under meds all time from now on "
  • - Mirsh (13th of May 2019, 05:36:44 PM)

You must be logged in to post a comment.


Dismiss